My Ultimate Dream

I wonder how old the earth is. I wonder how much it has undergone changes. And if I were alive in history, I wonder what could have been there before me? I also wonder how old the time is or worse, if it has an age. Even the fact that the world sleeps at nightfall confuses me. The truth is, I have never-ending-and-impossible-to-answer questions in my mind which mostly concerns time. If I could go to certain period of time, I’d always choose to witness the time of innocence or ignorance. That, precisely, is the time when people didn’t understand the concept of time, when they didn’t know what it means when the sun rises and when the sun kisses the horizon. For me, I think, this was how it all began. This was how we came to value the meaning of time. We eventually learned that whenever the sun is up, we say it is morning and that we have to get up from bed, prepare for school, office works, household chores, farm activities, etc. we eventually learned as well that if the sun is low, definitely above the thin line of the sea, it means we have to go home, cook for dinner, get all ourselves intact at home, rest from a hard day’s work and sleep when it’s dark. Few more hours and it’s morning again, then unnoticeably, it’s evening. We wake up, work and sleep. Then we wake up again, work again and sleep again. Don’t you think it’s all because of the sunrise and the sunset? We got clues from their movement. What if we didn’t understand them? If we didn’t, then perhaps, we wouldn’t have to sleep at night, we just keep working and perhaps, we could sleep at any time of the day, anytime we desire to without being deviant. And since we don’t understand the value of time, then maybe, we also don’t understand the shortness of life and the nearness of death. My dream has always been this: to live in or go to a period when people were innocent, ignorant and simple – free from the hands of time.

Lesbianism

Theological and philosophical teachings of homosexuality say that a homosexual orientation cannot be sinful in and of itself. Homosexual urgings are similar to other human weaknesses, in that they constitute an unnatural and unhealthy manifestation of the fallen human nature, like urgings for normal sex, drugs, and excessive food and alcohol. The homosexual urge can only cause damage to the person's soul if he caves in and acts on his desires, in the same manner that an alcoholic does no damage to himself until he begins to drink.

Lesbianism in the Philippines could be seen as a threat to us. We are exposed to Catholicism which dictates that homosexuality is strongly prohibited in God's law. Yet, nowadays, we see women engaged to women. So this is where the threat comes in. We are actually trying to deviate and with this, we directly affect the Roman Catholic Church. If this phenomenon could no longer be controlled or if the world agrees to it, then eventually, the Roman Catholic Church's view on this will be disregarded by mankind and what will be left is our freewill to homosexuality, specifically, to lesbianism.

In an existentialist's point of view, I agree to lesbianism. Man's expression of love towards the same sex is a creative way of responding to human nature. while others may find eros in the opposite sex, others too, find it in the same sex. What we see in the society today, the boy-and-girl relationship, is only a product of our belief (not necessarily biblical belief) that only that kind of relationship must exist in the society and which means that lesbianism, or homosexuality n general, is completely excluded. Basically, the gist of this is love.

I repeat, I agree to it. For me, really, this world was made beautifully and love was designed in many wonderful ways. Love was here even before humankind was known in earth. Lastly, I would say: "If nothing is impossible with God, how come lesbianism was made possible? Isn't it because God allowed it?" Start to think.