frisbee under the rain

So, today is Sunday, the 21st of the month. Summer is fast approaching and the thought of playing Frisbee under the extreme hotness of the sun starts to thrill me. I love playing Frisbee with my team. Today, even though I have soooo many things to do (I'm meeting deadlines), I still played. I even missed the meeting which I was supposed to attend to. I call that sacrifice.

The day is not so sunny. In fact, there were dark clouds forming in the sky, telling me it'd rain. And it did. When I was already in the field, ready to play, I wondered why I really didn't feel like playing at all. I felt tired, weak, sleepy and cold. It was, indeed, gloomy. Then later on, raindrops started falling on our heads. Whoa! It was raining. We got ourselves wet in the field while enjoying the game. It was good. It felt so good. Replenishing, reinvigorating and refreshing. Frisbee under the rain. I wondered when it will ever happen again .. I will surely miss that. :(

My Ultimate Dream

I wonder how old the earth is. I wonder how much it has undergone changes. And if I were alive in history, I wonder what could have been there before me? I also wonder how old the time is or worse, if it has an age. Even the fact that the world sleeps at nightfall confuses me. The truth is, I have never-ending-and-impossible-to-answer questions in my mind which mostly concerns time. If I could go to certain period of time, I’d always choose to witness the time of innocence or ignorance. That, precisely, is the time when people didn’t understand the concept of time, when they didn’t know what it means when the sun rises and when the sun kisses the horizon. For me, I think, this was how it all began. This was how we came to value the meaning of time. We eventually learned that whenever the sun is up, we say it is morning and that we have to get up from bed, prepare for school, office works, household chores, farm activities, etc. we eventually learned as well that if the sun is low, definitely above the thin line of the sea, it means we have to go home, cook for dinner, get all ourselves intact at home, rest from a hard day’s work and sleep when it’s dark. Few more hours and it’s morning again, then unnoticeably, it’s evening. We wake up, work and sleep. Then we wake up again, work again and sleep again. Don’t you think it’s all because of the sunrise and the sunset? We got clues from their movement. What if we didn’t understand them? If we didn’t, then perhaps, we wouldn’t have to sleep at night, we just keep working and perhaps, we could sleep at any time of the day, anytime we desire to without being deviant. And since we don’t understand the value of time, then maybe, we also don’t understand the shortness of life and the nearness of death. My dream has always been this: to live in or go to a period when people were innocent, ignorant and simple – free from the hands of time.

Lesbianism

Theological and philosophical teachings of homosexuality say that a homosexual orientation cannot be sinful in and of itself. Homosexual urgings are similar to other human weaknesses, in that they constitute an unnatural and unhealthy manifestation of the fallen human nature, like urgings for normal sex, drugs, and excessive food and alcohol. The homosexual urge can only cause damage to the person's soul if he caves in and acts on his desires, in the same manner that an alcoholic does no damage to himself until he begins to drink.

Lesbianism in the Philippines could be seen as a threat to us. We are exposed to Catholicism which dictates that homosexuality is strongly prohibited in God's law. Yet, nowadays, we see women engaged to women. So this is where the threat comes in. We are actually trying to deviate and with this, we directly affect the Roman Catholic Church. If this phenomenon could no longer be controlled or if the world agrees to it, then eventually, the Roman Catholic Church's view on this will be disregarded by mankind and what will be left is our freewill to homosexuality, specifically, to lesbianism.

In an existentialist's point of view, I agree to lesbianism. Man's expression of love towards the same sex is a creative way of responding to human nature. while others may find eros in the opposite sex, others too, find it in the same sex. What we see in the society today, the boy-and-girl relationship, is only a product of our belief (not necessarily biblical belief) that only that kind of relationship must exist in the society and which means that lesbianism, or homosexuality n general, is completely excluded. Basically, the gist of this is love.

I repeat, I agree to it. For me, really, this world was made beautifully and love was designed in many wonderful ways. Love was here even before humankind was known in earth. Lastly, I would say: "If nothing is impossible with God, how come lesbianism was made possible? Isn't it because God allowed it?" Start to think.

The Uncertainty in Iligan City

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This Chemistry Class

It's 5:02 p.m., the afternoon of January 21, Thursday. I am taking my time in drinking this coffee beside me while watching the rain pour down like an unstoppable phenomenon and trying to recollect some random thoughts of mine. Few more minutes and I'll be in that same room again. Until this very moment, I still do not understand how much I dislike attending my Chemistry class which lasts for 2 hours. It's not about the teacher, though, nor about the lessons and it's not even about my classmates that I loathe. To be honest, although this may seem odd to you, it's the feeling that bothers me whenever I approach that four-walled lecture hall. No matter how I try to draw my attention to the discussion, something in my unconscious pulls me back from the present and leads me to the long forgotten past.

The room is pretty big. Upon entering the door, the first thing you will notice is the cold temperature that gives off comfort especially and best for relaxation after a hard and strenuous day's work. second, a few more steps while facing left, you'll see the center aisle which divides the room into two sides and that directs you to the front area of the hall where the lengthy chalkboard is located. Just a number of inches above it lies the round clock. The seats are all green and the floor is tiled. All the walls, including the alcove, are painted with color flesh and this helps me feel even more nostalgic, all the more that I don't want to listen to the discussion.

But I never want to deny this fact that after all, I love Tuesday and Thursday nights especially during Chemistry classes. I am always motivated to think, write, reflect and imagine things as I leave the present. During this class, I can activate my wild and imaginative mind. I'd still think that my Chemistry class is still the best class in the week for only in this class do I experience such feelings: odd but undeniably profound. These feelings that never occured to me in any other classes ever since. Do you know what's the best thing after I leave the room? I feel light, innocent and renewed. And the worst thing, you ask? I realize i haven't really learned anything at all.